It's Probably Nothing

“It’s probably nothing, but let’s get it checked out anyway.”

“It’s probably nothing…”

Those are the words every person who has had cancer heard from their doctor before they were officially diagnosed.

But also, plenty of people who have never had cancer have also heard those words from their doctor.

At the time I’m writing this, I’m not sure which group I’ll end up being in. 

I hope I don’t have cancer.

But I also don’t want this to be… nothing.

It’s been about 3 weeks since my doctor found the lump, and in a few days I should find out if it’s nothing… or something. I haven’t been very worried over the past few weeks, but I have been thinking about it.

My first thought was, what if...

What if I do have cancer? What kind of cancer patient will I be? Will I get depressed and give up on life? Or will I be that cancer patient who realizes the little time we have on this planet is meant to be lived and enjoyed. And that right now is the best time to start living… really living.

I knew instantly I wanted to be the cancer patient who embraces life.

And this is why I don’t want my test result to be nothing. I want it to be something. I want it to be my wake-up call.

I want to live life like the clock is ticking.

Because the fact of the matter is that I am dying. We all are.

From the moment we’re born, we begin the process of getting older, which eventually brings us to death.

It’s time I do some living before I die (whenever that day comes).